“I Remember”

I remember you weren’t there for me

I remember when I was three and I would fall and cry - who was there - not you

I remember when I was five and I lost my first tooth, you didn’t put it under my pillow at night

And when I was nine I had my first recital - you weren’t there to cheer me on, mother was

I remember the first time I saw you for who you are

I remember when my mother sat and told me that she loves me - you never did that for me

I wish that I didn’t look like you - but I thank you for that because I’m beautiful

I remember

I cannot remember you buying me anything beautiful, like a golden necklace

I cannot remember the smile on your face when I took my first steps or said my first word

I want to remember spending time with you, but I can’tbecause you weren’t there 

I want to remember the day you will come to your senses and realize you’re a dad

My mother remembers you not being a great father

She was the one to up bring me since birth

But I remember my life as it is without you

I wish I couldn’t remember your face but it's burned into my memory

I know that you have to earn the title daddy

 I remember that because my mother told me so.

Excellent, Malasia.  Very heartfelt.